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who can resist chocolate EVER?

Fri, 17 May 2013 11:59:07 -0400

Fun fact: I ate a lot of chocolate before a car trip on Easter once when I was around 6 years old and ended up vomiting then didn’t eat chocolate for three years

ruby, why do you delete your posts? :( ps what kind of chocolate? thats exactly what i did when i was buying easter choccies for people haha

Fri, 17 May 2013 11:25:43 -0400

I delete my posts usually because my family stalks this blog and there are often things I don’t want them to see, also sometimes I post and then realise I’m annoying so I delete my post haha. The chocolate I had was a bounty, I don’t think I’d ever had it before and it’s yum! Haha who can resist chocolate at easter? :)

I found one of my mum’s boyfriend’s chocolate bars yesterday and I ate it and today I...

Fri, 17 May 2013 08:20:22 -0400

I found one of my mum’s boyfriend’s chocolate bars yesterday and I ate it and today I bought another one to replace the one that I ate but I ended up eating that one too

hi chef ru just a quick note to say just make sure you don't get sucked into the eating disorder community on here, it even worries me to see you picking up the eating disorder 'lingo' such as ed, tw, intake etc. I know these are just words but they aren't really used in this way outside of this forum and I just hope you're not letting the internet influence you in a negative way

Thu, 16 May 2013 10:58:46 -0400

Hey anon :) I follow a lot of recovery blogs and majority of my followers are also in recovery so I wouldn’t say that I am apart of an eating disorder community on here, but I do feel as if I am a small part of the tumblr recovery community. I don’t think it influences me negatively, if anything I think it’s nice to have the support and encouragement from the lovely people on here. But thank you for your concern, I appreciate it :)

Blueberry porridge with peanut butter, cinnamon and coconut

Thu, 16 May 2013 05:05:43 -0400

Blueberry porridge with peanut butter, cinnamon and coconut

letsbeseaotters replied to your post: Whenever I post honestly on here I lose about 5… ...

Wed, 15 May 2013 06:41:00 -0400

letsbeseaotters replied to your post: Whenever I post honestly on here I lose about 5…

but you gain +5 respect and love!

Aw and I get to keep the best followers like you :)

Blood orange chobani and bananananana with nuts and coconut

Wed, 15 May 2013 06:23:35 -0400

Blood orange chobani and bananananana with nuts and coconut

it makes me feel so much better to know that others suffer from bingeing too... to go from having an extremely clean, restricted and minimal daily intake to one that seems to me to be 'out of control' and 'over the top' is a super confronting thing. I still very much think in figures and numbers and so when I often reflect on the amount of food in the day it scares me... it's nice to know I'm not the only one.

Wed, 15 May 2013 06:15:36 -0400

You’re right, it’s absolutely confronting and it can feel like the worst thing in the world at that moment. I’m sorry to hear that you still struggle. I hate that so many of us view food as numbers and ratios and a measure of control. It sucks out all enjoyment and it’s horrible. I’m glad to hear that you feel less alone after reading things on my blog. I know that a lot of people I speak to on here deal with the same thing. You’re never alone and I hope you know you can talk to me if you ever want to <3 <3

I want to take Bonnie on a fun romantic exciting holiday but I do not have any money :( but the good...

Wed, 15 May 2013 03:35:48 -0400

I want to take Bonnie on a fun romantic exciting holiday but I do not have any money :( but the good news is I got a free sample of anti ageing moisturiser and I look ten years younger (9 years old) and the other good news is mum is going away tomorrow and I will finally be alone

Hey you're a really great person and I don't know why I'm writing this but I just want you to feel really good about yourself because you deserve to. You're beautiful and funny and smart and talented and great. I don't know how to vocalize it but I just feel really positively about you and I want you to know that you're great and I hope you have a wonderful day.

Wed, 15 May 2013 00:32:57 -0400

You are so so kind <3 <3 <3 <3 Thanks so much for brightening my day with such beautiful caring words, it honestly means so so much to me. The fact that you went out of your way to send me such a sweet message shows how lovely you must be. Thank you for bringing a smile to my face, I hope your day is full of happiness :)

Hey ruby, so I know you should eat what you crave to prevent over eating later on. The problem is I've been craving this ice cream bar my mom recently bought, and i've eaten it everytime I craved it, which is usually 1 per day. I don't really think it's good at all. I'm about to grab one right now and I don't know whether to feel guilty or not....

Wed, 15 May 2013 00:16:11 -0400

No need to feel guilty my friend!! I’m in exactly the same position though so I understand that. Mum buys me Ben and Jerry’s all the time and I always have mixed feelings but the way I see it is that I love peanut brittle ice cream and literally nothing is going to change if I eat it. Let yourself enjoy it, I think it’s great that you can eat it when you feel like it. You are still the same beautiful wonderful fabulous strong incredible person that you were before eating the ice cream :) Feed your soul! Let your tummy be happy :)

how can i stop bingeing?

Wed, 15 May 2013 00:05:33 -0400

Please read my last respone to the anon who asked about binges <3

Anon :) As Ruby said she knows people that when recovery from a restrictive disorder/or habits develop binge habits, I did, I went from restricting to binging and it was so terrible, I still struggle with it occasionally but it's gotten a lot better. There are so many people here for you like Ruby said so please use those resources I am always here if you need to talk <3

Tue, 14 May 2013 04:51:08 -0400

Abbey is always wonderful to talk to <3

ruby can i ask, when you were dealing with binges too, were you also dealing with purging after? i purged for the first time last night and told myself i wouldnt do it again but i just feel so nskjfsdjkfsdfkm and no-one else i know has ever done it

Tue, 14 May 2013 04:02:00 -0400

Yes I used to make myself throw up every day, I still struggle with it but I don’t do it as much anymore. I’m really sorry to hear that you’re having a hard time, feel free to come off anon and have a conversation with me about it, I’d love to try to help. No judgement here I promise! <3

ru have you ever struggled with binging?? i recovered on my own by basically binging and now i can't stop and i've tried everything and i dont know what to do

Tue, 14 May 2013 03:04:00 -0400

Hi anon, I’m so sorry it’s taken me such a long time to get back to you <3 I have struggled with binging on a number of occasions, although it has never been a prominent part of my disorder. I’m really sorry to hear that you’re struggling so much. I think it’s common for people recovering from a restrictive disorder to develop binge eating habits, I’ve spoken to a number of people on here who have gone through something similar. Regaining a healthy relationship with food is incredibly difficult after dealing with disordered thoughts and behaviours for so long. When you’ve been depriving yourself of certain foods, you might automatically feel out of control when you attempt to eat them.. consequently leading to a binge over which you feel you have no control. I know how horrible it feels when you’re in that position and I am truly sorry that you’re having to go through that. I suppose the most important piece of advice I would give you is to stop depriving yourself. I feel like during my binges, I would eat one thing that I wouldn’t usually let myself and then suddenly I felt out of control and I would stuff my face until I felt sick or was in pain, because I think on some level I knew that it was my only opportunity to eat these certain foods. Of course I am not a professional and can therefore only give you advice from experience. My experience and feelings may also be different to what you’re dealing with, so I don’t know if I will be of any help. I guess another thing I would suggest is to try to become more mindful of your thoughts and feelings and behaviours. I know that often when you’re amidst a binge you aren’t really thinking - you’re just doing, and it can all seem like one big horrible blur. When you feel like a binge is coming on, try to step out of your immediate position and become an observer. Notice and recognise how you’re feeling, what’s triggered you. Perhaps even write about it. You might like to come up with healthier strategies on how to deal with how you’re feeling. You might want to call up a friend and talk to them about it, or distract yourself with something nice like a movie or a bath. I don’t really know your situation or your cirmustances and so I can only really give you advice on a surface level. Seeking professional help could be useful for you, in dealing with the underlying issues that have caused your disorder in the first place. I’m sorry I probably haven’t been very helpful, I really hope that you start to find things getting easier for you soon <3 Feel free to talk to me some more if you ever want xx

Bonnie is the cutest thing to have ever existed

Mon, 13 May 2013 08:41:40 -0400

Bonnie is the cutest thing to have ever existed

come and get ur samosas

Mon, 13 May 2013 08:33:47 -0400

come and get ur samosas

Hey girl! You're not fat and you're gorgeous!

Mon, 13 May 2013 00:43:44 -0400

Thank you my friend xxx

Agh wow the most beautiful person in the entire world

Sat, 11 May 2013 08:34:08 -0400

Agh wow the most beautiful person in the entire world

Wholemeal sandwich with chicken, lettuce, tomato and hummus

Thu, 09 May 2013 06:46:04 -0400

Wholemeal sandwich with chicken, lettuce, tomato and hummus